Confession: I am currently in the Friend Zone. It’s sunny here on the beach but the ocean waves are off-limits. I wouldn’t mind this except I am acutely aware of a desire to swim. I want to NOT WANT to swim. These feelings are useless to me so I want to stamp them out. I’m just not quite sure how. This whole thing is nothing but a frustrating distraction and it really burns me that I can’t get rid of it. Surely my thoughts have better things to dwell on, damn it.